They dont see all that good around them, and maybe..they are happier when there´s something to lament about. Or that´s how it seems to my eyes.
I have been positive kind of person almost all my life, I had this gift to see good in bad... enjoy about those small things... now, lately, I have felt like I am in dark forest...And I dont mean my home, my man! No... all good in there. But...surrounding.
Lately.. have have to admit...I havent been enjoying too much about nothing. I feel like I have been sucked dry, mentally. That took me so ling to realize that and put it in words. Now I found those words...
I know...I´m moaning here now..bare with me, ok? :) There will be more positive things, after I deal this situation and go trough it. Writing makes it easier, it makes sense for me. It makes me understand.
So, I have been mentally dry. But also.... afraid to live. Yes. I have been afraid to live. Because I have listened too much. Too much negative thoughts. Things like: well, this went wrong, next thing will go wrong, too. I cant, I´m afraid that, that´s not gonna happen, No, I cant, it will go wrongly.... things like that. And since I have been so long hearing this rather that hearing positive things... I forgot to be me, to be all that positive that I was. Still going to be. If someones life is all about finding problems, my life is going to be something else.
I WILL find my way back. I WILL be happier. I WILL be more me. I´m not gonna take others negative ways to me. That made me literally sick. Still am, because I just realized that. But! Now, because I know....I can fix it.
This could sound stupid, but I didnt realize this before now. I just...felt sad..all the time. That road will kill me mentally, so time to change path.
Some reminders for me :)