I shall try this. I know, that sometimes you just cant be positive...or can you? For me, if something happens or someone hurts me.. I take it in me too much. I cant see good from the jungle of negativity. I know, that my mind is partly inclined to be melancholic, there´s my power to create.
But, what if... I try that positive thing more! I know, I´m more positive than negative in life, but taking things personally...my weak spot. Also, what if I try to start my days with positive thoughts? Can I do that? Like small meditation at the beginning, before coffee...
If it´s true (and of course it is) that I´m all that, what that quote above says...holy S##t! I have so much power in my hands to change things in my head. That´s not gonna be easy, and there will be bad moment´s, too... but. What if... I will learn, to be more good to me, inside too?
I demand for me so much. I do. As I train, that´s the only way to get results. But in home...maybe...finding balance between demanding and letting go?
In those two line´s, there´s so much power. Just think about it: how much freedom is in that thought? How much opportunities? Can one live believing in that,all the time? Yes, there are people just doing that. But..am I too vain to live like that? Do I need some drama in my life? Sometimes maybe yes...
I know, that my mind is working like a wind. When it´s too.... calm, it needs some action. So, admitting, who I am..maybe I can work some golden path for me. Who knows, maybe one day I´m gonna be happy that I´m all calm? Right now..not feeling that..
So, starting now..I´m gonna take moment to just breath. And I´m gonna start my days like that... I dont have to do that hour or two, no. Few minutes in mornings is good enough.
And yes, there is a change, that I will write about those hurting things too ;) That´s what I call life.