I´m afraid for some things, yes. But lately I have noticed that I´m afraid thing that I was not.. earlier! Then, when you start to think about things more...you notice that you spend most of your time to being afraid of something! Worrying, stressing....killing yourself slowly.
I´m in that point, that my body really has tried to tell me this, it´s tired. Tired of being afraid every single thing. It needs to have some laughter-time!
This grown up life....full of obligations! Where´s all the fun? If this is something called being grown up...then I dont want it.
I want to be funny, crazy, do stupid things...I need to make mistakes. And not to take those too seriously! I want to sit in cliff, just to hang out..like I did when I was younger. I wanna swim in the middle of the night and not thinking, that this is ONLY for younger people. I wanna go somewhere, just to feel that I´m lost. I want to explore the forest, without hurry... without bigger reason.
I want to be me again.
I wanna have some fun.....
I do know, that I just cant do so 24/7. There´s thing to be need to done. But I dont want to worry so much, not anymore. Like Tom Oar said in Mountain Man: we ride that horse, when it comes. That is truly such a wise thing to say! He said it well..and more I think about that..more sense it makes!
Wise man :)