I dosent have to be that, but in human mind... well, there´s not on/off switch. And remembering one thing from last year...one of my father´s cousin died in that thing..that didnt exactly helped.
I started to thing, all I have now. My life...my close ones...home...family... I almost broke my heart , when I realize that I have took those too be for granted!
I have been too selfish to see, what´s around me. How lucky I am. And I really should be thankful in every morning...about just that fact, that I can open my eyes once again. That, in it self, is a huge gift already! I have, by that, opportunity to do things during day. To be able to feel...see...smile..cry..what ever belongs in life. To be able to live those, is gift.
Like I said, I dont know what is going on. Tomorrow I have doctor again, and of course I hope that it´s just something small. Just something, that is easy to fix..or falls alarm?
What ever it it....it woke me. Just by thinking...what could I loose, if i dont open my eyes now. You know? :)
Oh, and those lingonberrys. We went to woods yesterday, to pick up some berrys. Here´s my day in photos: