And I´m finaly undestanding me! That is so relieveing, understandable and explains so much.
I´m really, really happy about this now. There´s so much, that I need to explore, to read about this.
I thought, while I was a child that there´s something wrong in me... no, I was just sensitive! I also enjoy to be alone, weard? No! Noise effects me strongly...also lights.. news...
This is just new way of life for me :) I have always wondered, why I dont like it in big crowds and why, was my panic so strong that back then, even doc´s couldn´t help me.
I totally understand it now. Too much stimulations all around me. I couldn´t stop that. My nerves were so stressed! Still, when I go to shopping...I totally hate that loud music there. And yet, in home..I love music.
I can cry while watching tv, or listening music. Or..just looking some art. Or just normal picture...
I hear some noises louder than others. Also, when I´m hungry... I feel it so badly. Food has been important to me always. Now, I know why.
Also...I like to workout alone. I have, really have thought: what the hell is wrong with me?? I love people, but I reather be alone?
Now I know more...
This is so liberating! Those things, that I have done to me lately..took my time from internet..or just listened meditation...I needed a brake for my brains.
And explains, why I took that Ukraine-situation so strongly! Really, I lost my sleep for that.
Wow, this is... I´m not totally weard ;) And yes, it´s hard, time to time..to feel so srtongly, to sense so much..but: it´s also a gift! Now I understand it. I can see so many colors in one color... shades..
Not just black and white. Also, now I know, what I have to do! Taking my time, small brakes...calming down..
I am the highly sensitive person!