I was at the gym, i felt a bit sick before but thought that it´s gonna pass. In 2 weeks i havent slept so well because of my back. Maybe 4h/night. So i was overtired. In my brains was only one thought: NEED. TO. WORKOUT.
So i went at 10am to gym. Changes my clothes. I have Heart Rate Monitor when i go jogging or gym. Pulse132 before i even started. But, i thought that it´s gonna be ok, have to! NEED TO WORKOUT.
I went first to treadmill, and all was good. Litte tired but ok. Then this press for legs. Great machine and normally i do it good, workout. I have 15/40kg *3. I couldnt do that, only 2 times. Oh well, next machine then.. pectoral. One, two, three...oh, my pulse is 151??? Wow...ok, just few more..i can do it..go go go!!! Two laps with 7kg and done..i did 4 machines like that, then i felt like i wanted to puke! And pulse was 161.....I had to guit. I really didnt see the stairs, just ran t get my shoes and stuff..and ran out, to my car. I had to put air conditioning to max. Still pulse was over 150??? And i felt that i had arrhythmia. First i felt so disappointed for my poor exercise, really...then i worried because i needed to drive 40km to home...I felt so awful!!
And i needed to take some gas..what a line..my heart pumping and i´m waiting to get my gas!! HURRY THERE!!! Normally i dont mind to wait, part of life..
I felt better just after i came home and rested for a while. Then I started to think...how hard i have actually took myself lately...not rested..I really didnt saw that before. Why??
Didnt pay attention to me. Didnt listen myself..didnt respect life in me...
In Midsummer fest, i was so tired...but i knew that was normal. I needed to feel that. And appreciate also. So, i took it sooooo easy. Almost like slowmotion. I went to sea, just looking..love sea much. I ate well, all weekend..swam..only short visit to friends, who had fun but i didnt drink, so i just had my fun for looking ;) and sauna..that´s it. Totally relaxing.
Now, i feel a bit better, like i have loaded my batteries. Like i have done, i guess.. But the greatest lesson was: I need to respect more life. I know, that wasnt so smart thing to do..going gym etc, when so tired and feeling bad and overstressed. Not smart at all.
I need to tread myself better, cause life..it´s a gift. Not
taken for granted. Never. I think i learned my lesson... I´m gonna put here some of my views from weekend, relaxing :) Hope you can feel that
That green with leafs, its vihta, bath whisk. We use it in sauna... ;))) guess how :) totally relaxing!