This pain includes pain, hope, fear, tears, smile, love..and actually all great, powerful emotions! Like in rollercoaster. I wish to touch, i need to be touched..i want to fly, want to be free, free to love, free to live. Free from my own mind, still come back to me. I wanna explode, destoy all and build it again.
I have been alone strong, i had to face the wind of life alone. I needed to stand with my both feets even thought tahat storm was huge, storm of life. I never gave my self permission to be weak. Never.
Now, i´m tired I am. But, in a way, that i can live with myself. One great spirit showed me, that i´m not alone. It´s ok, to be tired.
That part i never understand. I thought, that i need to be stong, all the time. Weakness is not an option for me, or my whole life as i know, will fall apart. But hey, that didnt happend!!! No, i noticed that i need to rest. I do. I want to write more, be here with you. I want to have those lazy days without bad conscience. And one more thing...i feel that i´m not alone.
So much love inside, for you, for life, for world. Time to release it.