Also, i took it kind of my time to see inside of me. And people around me. I noticed, that there is one human, that wants to make me feel bad. Covered with compliments. Sad thing is that he/she is my related.
I thought that for a while..is that some kind of permission to make you feel bad, just because is relative?
I came only one conclusion: no.
No one has that permission. No.. I have also thought my mother, she passed away in-91, cancer. I took care for her till last breath, with my dad.
She was awesome woman!!! I havent talked about her so, it was too painfull..but now i want to tell something.
She was very strong woman, she said to me..when i was young: dont let no one kick you in head. And that she told in her last energy..in hospital bed.
She knew, that when i was young, i was too kind. And some might take advantage of that. I remember that forever, i think.
And she was right. I had to raise some balls.
Now, i have those..not literally!!! :) But, i know..i´m stonger. Because i can make this decision to take my distance from this person.
I dont allow no one take me down anymore. And by that i dont mean that i´m gonna be mean or so! No, I dont want to hurt no one, eighter! Just taking my own space, own life and continue it like i want.
Keep on loving and living. Smiling, too :)