It´s: to treat myself better! Belive me, it´s not easy. Even if we dont realize it, treating others better is somehow easyer..
I can make good food to others, but when i´m alone, i just eat something. Same goes almost everything.
I took a brake almost all media for a while, and it felt good. I listened myself, and practiced to listen, what my body, mind and soul need....
If i wanted to do something, i just did that, even if someone did´nt want. I thought that ok, you dont want, but that dosent explain, why i cant want. And cant do. Couse i can.
Do you understand, what i´m trying to say? Hope, couse i´m still looking for the right words to explain my feelings ;)
I took this habit in use: i made myself good food, sweets, good drink.
I spoled myself in sauna with all good lotions, soaps and so on.
I took my time, when i chose my clothes. If i did´nt want to do something.. i did´nt do. And THAT i did with good conscience.
I made a list what i want to do in near future. And I´m gonna do just that.
No matter what.
I bought a pool, becouse i wanted. I heard something: is that necessary?? For me, yes. And thats enough for me.
Now i´m feeling stronger, and better!!!! Couse i FINALLY understand that i´m worth that and so much more.
I wont settle for less anymore. And you know what?? It feels so right! :)
So, i think that after all i have been gone thru, i find myself and my self-esteem.
Nothing cant come in my way, when it´s concerns subject: living my life.
And now i have so much more energy to write, and hopefully more to give.
|1am, almost full :))))|
|Loving the sun|
|..and ice-cream ;)))|
So, see you soon and have a great day, remember to love you too