I mean, if i write, it´s important to me. I feel good about it. And i´m proud, what i do. I know, i do it well. But i also know, that it´s not very typical profession.
I dont work from 8am-4pm, come home and e.g start to cook. It´s not that kind of work, that i just go and do, then leave it behind. And it´s not so visible, i dont build things or something.
It´s more like i sit with my laptop, tapping words and looking like im in my own world. And yes, i am. That´s what i do! Real work happends in my mind, and usually it´s hard. Not same like lifting some hard stuff, but mentally. I go so deep waters, faceing hard things.
That´s my gift. I can´t do anything else, belive me, i have tryed. It has been long road to get here, and be me.
But. Then someone comes and says: guit that hobby and do something real. Looking you, like you are minor human Being. Little smile, little shake of his head, and patronizing attitude.
THAT i can´t stand. If you dont understand something, it does not give any permission to put someone down.
Have you ever snuggle in your couch, wondering why cant you do anything, everything feels so pointless?
At first you are so excited about what you do, then some small comment and you lose your interest.
That´s not fair. I mean, everybody has skills, to do their own things, and i cant go and say " That´s not important, that´s stubid. Do something else"
Or of course i can, but then i´m just being stubid.
I want to respect all skills, even it´s not my thing. But to that other it is important.
Like this blog to me, it´s important. I love to write this, and when i see, that someone has read this, i get so happy.
That gives me more fire to go on. Someone tryed to put down my fire, but i just reverse it: gonna write more ;)
I just wish, that people can be more open, less self-centered about themselfs. We each have our own place in this world, something to do. So let´s do our own thing´s and be proud of it!
Belive it or not, it´s snowing again.....
And yes, i went for a long walk, it felt so good. Actually i started my day with that.. :)
Woh, that weather is so bad now, i hope that there´s not bad car crashes today..
Have a good day all,