This journy with this blog is really educational for me. Actually in many ways.
First of all, this challenge me to open up more , and that is very important for my book. I need to be honest there, and also here. Honest to myself . Write what i really think, see who am i.
And i love to notice, that somebody reads this! Thanks! :) So, that means, that something i say, is interesting?? And that´s also so good feeling. It´s like writing diary, but not so privately. I do have diary, and i keep it day after day.. Of course it is more intimate and there is no sencor.
I dont know, if i should write here more without that sencor. I open up really slowly.. I´m sure that I`m getting more bold of my writing here the more i write. It´s silly, couse in that book of mine it´s easyer write more and bolder? It´s like camera vs live audience: I love camera, and i dont get nervous at all front of it! Never, i love it. But live audience... omg... i will freeze in seconds!
I have had a chance to know more about my family, my roots. Both, my father´s and mother´s side comes so great artist, creative persons and so good peoples. I´m very grateful for the legacy of been creative. I have so great tools inside of me, and i just have to learn to use those properly.
I was reading myself to be a nurse, couse i really love to help people. But still, something was always missing. Like i liked it, but not loved.. Just like you meet a new person, go on a date. There´s nothing wrong with you´re date, but it just dont turn you on. It´s ok, nothing more. That´s how i felt. Then i guit reading and started to write. And wow, i was (still am) on fire!!! That´s what i wanna feel, when i do my job. Or live my life. I dont want to settle for second best, I want it all ;) Ok, I know, that it just cant be fireworks all the time, but sometimes it is :) Life i mean....
That´s all for today
all the best, all of you,